Every up has its down.

Remember when I was all “New year. New me.“? Well, it hasn’t been as easy as I thought it would be. Having Graves disease isn’t easy, but having Graves while nursing and working full time is even harder. Trying to get my health in check due to thyroid issues, attempting to get my body back to its pre-pregnancy shape, and ensuring that I continue to have enough of a supply to continue nursing my beautiful daughter has been rough. It feels like it is a perfect storm for exhaustion and I feel like I am being defeated.

I’m nearly 3 months in on taking anti-thyroid medication which causes weight gain. For 7 months, I have been taking a supplement and a prescription for milk productions that both cause weight gain. The cards are stacked against me, and the scale is creeping. This is a load of crap. Here’ a shot of my daily cocktail:
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Yup, six of those pills are teaming up against my fight to lose the baby weight. I am nearly 8 months post partum. I am pretty sure I am not allowed to even call it “baby weight” anymore, it’s just “fat”.

In looking to understand my disease, I have been researching the AIP, or autoimmune paleo, diet. Looks like my days of enjoying cheats of peanut butter and chick peas are going to be coming to an end soon. My hopes are that I can turn around my broken thyroid with the help of a complete nutrition overhaul. Maybe that will mean that my dose of Methimazole will go down? Unfortunately, I have become so down on myself that cookies have become the answer to perk me up. Then I feel like crap and the guilt takes over. Vicious cycle.

Luckily, I have been having more good days at the gym than bad. If I didn’t have such lows, the highs wouldn’t be so sweet. It’s just so damn discouraging to work my butt off and see the scale moving in the wrong direction.

So why am I sharing this? It started off as a way to get things off my chest. I wasn’t going to publish it. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that if I share it, my ass will be held accountable. So, it’s in writing now. It’s time to get real.

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Protein Lactation Bites

Maternity leave is over, and since returning to work, I am afraid that my supply is dropping. These are awesome little bites that give me the energy to get through a long day of teaching and add a protein punch for my evening workouts. It doesn’t hurt that they are packed with galactagogues!
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New year. New me.

I’m not sharing this so people feel bad for me. I’m not sharing this so that people who keep tabs on me anonymously through the internet can gain knowledge of my personal story. I’m not sharing this because I am an expert.

I am sharing this so that if someone finds themselves in my position, they know that there’s hope.

I know that I needed hope.

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Paleo Apple Cake

It’s snowing here and well below freezing, brrr! I didn’t want to venture out on the roads so I decided to bake a cake since I was stuck at home with my little one! The house now smells fantastic and I got some quality time in with my baby girl. She is refusing naps lately and therefore she is very cranky. I may have found a solution to entertaining her – singing very loudly and dancing while she watches me bake! At a little over five months old, she is still EBF. She is starting to show some major signs that she is ready to try solids. I took the opportunity today to see what she would do with a peeled hunk of apple, and boy was the result adorable!

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Paleo-ish Banana Walnut Lactation Cookies

I am on a mission to find as many ways to disguise brewers yeast in recipes as I can! With the brewers yeast, flaxseed meal, and oatmeal, these cookies will most likely give you the supply boost you are looking for! This recipe is “paleo-ish” because oatmeal doesn’t fit I to the paleo diet, but as a breastfeeding mommy, I am not willing to give it up. The rest of the ingredients are guilt-free, so go ahead and eat up these cookies! It’s for the baby, right?!
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Paleo-ish Lactation Cookies

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I realize that this recipe applies to a very small population, but I think that for those who are interested, this will be greatly appreciated. When I was three months postpartum I decided it was time to get back on the paleo train. Baby weight plus postpartum binging had me feeling super gross. I feel fabulous now that I am eating clean again. I am almost completely paleo again with a couple of exceptions – oatmeal being one of them. I am exclusively breastfeeding my sweet angel, and like most mothers, I am worried about supply. Oats are known to boost supply, so I am not willing to give them up for as long as I continue to nurse.

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Teacher. Foodie. Athlete. and now Mommy!

When I say I fell off the paleo wagon, I may as well say I canonballed off and didn’t look back! Teacher. Foodie. Athlete. became starving pregnant woman with carbalicious cravings. In the year that I’ve been MIA, my husband and I created the most beautiful baby girl and she is a happy (and more importantly healthy) little three month old now. With my diet change and that whole growing another human thing, I gained WAY too much weight. Three months postpartum I have decided it is time to get back on the paleo train! I am nursing my sweet girl, so my doc advised to add a calcium supplement to the paleo regime, but it’s safe to say I’m baccccccck! Stay tuned for some new creations as I look to get back into the best shape of my life! For now, I introduce you to the most perfect daughter I could have ever asked for – Lyra Maria!

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